2012 Weight Goals

I haven’t been weighing myself much lately. I checked my weight and measurements (waist and hip) before I started marathon training in September and sporadically throughout my training to make sure that I wasn’t over or under eating for the amount of exercise I was getting. I wanted my weight to stay consistent and it did. I hovered around 165lbs, give or take 2 pounds, for the entire 4 months (yes, I do know how much more 165lb is than 147lb)

I have been paying close attention to how my pants fit and while marathon training I found that they were feeling pretty damn tight around the waist (the first place on my body where weight starts to creep on). Since my weight was consistent I wasn’t too concerned though I was, quite frankly, uncomfortable. And I felt a bit schlumpy (<– not a real word, but you catch my drift).

I went straight back to weightlifting after the marathon with this workout and have been at it for almost 3 weeks now. Nothing makes me feel better than pushing some weight around (except maybe kicking teenage boys in the balls, but that’s another story) so I was happy to turn my focus to that instead of running.

It didn’t take long for me to start feeling awesome again. Last week I noticed that felt lighter and tighter and generally mahvelous.

My tight pants were fitting better which made my 8-hours-sitting-on-your-ass job more comfy. I checked my measurements right away because I like the validation:

Waist size – down a 2 centimeters (I knew it!)
Hip size – stayed the same (perfect! I like big butts and I cannot lie)
Weight – up 3 pounds (yes! . . .wait, I mean no! what? up 3lbs?!? say wha??)

I freaked out for about a second and a half, asking the scale if he was fucking kidding me. Didn’t he see my measurements!? Didn’t he know that I wasn’t stuffed like a sausage in my pants today?!

Then I told him to go to hell once again, because he lies and can’t be trusted.

I felt good and I looked good and that was good enough for me.

I’m really coming around and starting to realize that my weight has little to do with how I feel about myself and my body confidence.

So I’m going to focus on more important weight goals this year ie. how much weight I can push around.

2012 Beast Mode Goals

To be completed at some point by the end of the year

-Back Squats: 225lb (as deep as I can go with my tight shins)

-Bench Press: my body weight

-Pull Ups: 5 unassisted

-Push-Ups: 100 consecutive

Right now I’m adding a lot more push-ups into my training plan to complete the push-up goal, and generally trying to build back any of the strength I lost during marathon training.

day 155: progress report

My 8 Weeks to Awesomeness is going awesomer than last week. But, as I mentioned in my break-up letter, my scale lies. It told me I lost 3lb this week, but I’m doubtful.

There are only 6 weeks left until my birthday.

Let’s see how I’m stacking up with my goals:

Calories:

Goal: 1500 cal
Avg this week -> 1610 cal

• That includes Saturday too, so I think it’s pretty good. An improvement on last week.

Macronutrients:

Goal: 40% protein, 40% carbs (mainly before and after my workouts), 20% fat
Avg this week -> 21% protein, 45% carbs, 34% fat

• Yikes, not nearly enough protein this week.

Exercise:

Goal: Keep doing what I’m doing – weightlifting 4x per week; yoga 2x per week; cardio 4x per week
This week ->
Weightlifting: 2 upper body and 2 lower body days
Cardio: 4 cardio sessions @ 150 min total (all 4 were morning cardio sessions too!)
Yoga: twice this week

• I think I did pretty well with my normal exercise routine, but exercising is not usually a problem for me since I like doing it.

I’m going to keep doing what I’m doing and maybe check in with the scale again next week to see if it was being honest.

I love this ad. It makes me wish I lived back then.

Could you imagine the outrage if this ad ran today with the line: “There’s no excuse for being fat”? I think there would be an outcry.

Now, if only I could wear a swimsuit like hers for my birthday. No bikini wax or weight loss required! (…and it has a schnazzy belt!)

The Break-Up

Dear Bathroom Scale,

I think it's about time we sit and have a talk about our relationship.

We've been together now for a long time but I'm slowly starting to see our relationship for what it
really is and I think I deserve better. You are unreliable and you lie to me constantly; sometimes
you tell me what I want to hear even when I don't believe it's true and other times you just to put
me down. In spite of this abuse you somehow still have such a powerful hold over me that I keep
coming back to you day after day. Sometimes multiple times a day.

What you say to me on any given day defines my happiness. It has the power to make me feel beautiful
or ugly or frumpy or stunning, and that's something I can't seem to decide for myself without your
input. I'm not content until you tell me that I'm light. I want to feel beautiful regardless of what
you say to me and that's something I just can't learn to do with you dominating my life as you do now.

I've had enough of this and it has to stop. I am breaking up with you. I will always think fondly
of you and I hope we remain friends. Maybe we can keep in touch and even catch up on a weekly basis.
But this relationship has overwhelmed me and I think it's best we go our separate ways.

Love,

Samantha